I hate my family members. No matter how filial I am, they wont give a single dam. They're so afraid of my brother till they accuse me of smoking instead of him ; and such silly sister would help her brother to keep bad things from them. What's this? My brother always has the authority to speak at home. I would rather say that both my parents are afraid of him. I don't know the fucking reason. I really wonder am I their blood daughter or Im really adopted? It's been a long time since I've cried over such matters and got fucking irritated by each of them. My mother will just keep quiet till my father reaches home, and she'll pour every single thing out. What the fuck? I swear my whole life that I've never scolded any vulgarities in front/at them before. I know that they wont like it, but why they didn't stop my brother for being so rude? Bias.

& My brother will just scold me what he had seen at home. I think he treated my mother far worst than me. & my mother didn't say a single thing. Dam hurting & upset lah! They wont even let me have a peaceful dinner, when my brother threatens to beat me up. Obviously, I was shocked. But what can I do? Hiding under the blanket till daylight? I really feel like leaving this house. I doubt they meant what they said. I wonder what they said was true, sigh. Now I know that crying over this for more than an hour is useless.